My NEW toy! gosh. I totally love it!! 

It was an unexpected buy. But I have always been wanting a HOLGA. Geeez

Back to work ... :X 

真真假假，假假真真

什么时候是真，什么时候是假？

真假要如何分清呢？

为何那么多疑惑和猜测？

为何要怀疑？

为何就不能100％的信任?

有时会想，是真的朋友吗？

那这又有多真呢？

两面的。是两面的。

在这圈子里，太多太多两面了

或许我也袋上了面具

这面具 。。。

要袋多就呢？

＊＊＊＊ ＊＊＊＊ ＊＊＊＊ ＊＊＊＊＊ ＊＊＊＊ ＊＊＊＊＊

A portion of me secretly wish to be infected by H1N1

I'm the most fortunate of them all I guess.

But somehow, my heart still flew away ...

oh Gwad !! Can't believe its sun already! 

I'm stubbornly stuck in my holiday mood! =x thats bad ..

Thankfully I had quite an enjoyable 9 days of break lar. 

So I shall not complain! =p

19th June 2009 - FRIDAY

** Headed for a mini-road trip to JB with Jan & Sam!

It was a beautiful day ...

It was a relaxing day ... 

It was a rather fruitful day ... HAHA! 

After which, I headed down for CWBS on the book of Songs of Solomon. Haven attend church wide bible study for the longest time. Was a little lost. but was good. I wish I did respond to the altar call though.

20th June 2009 - SATURDAY

** Pack & clean up my entire messy room

** Got bored & started playing on my Guit

** Started cam-whoring with my Guit. geez

silly me ...

18th June 2009 - THURSDAY 

** Miss P jio-ed me for KTV this morning (I haven even got out of my bed)

~ I've got to say this. It was pretty timely. I have been wanting to go for a K session ever since TUE(where my colleagues suggested). But I din held much hope becoz my colleagues are crazily busy and NOT the entire world is having MEDIACORP DAY OFF anyway. 

So when I first read the text I almost jump out of bed! It was almost a prayed ans. haha!

Den again Its nearing the end of the mth and I'm pretty broke. The next thing I know, she is holding to a voucher that states ($10 nett per person). And so it was really $10 Nett per person for 5 hours of KTV session. And now, its a prayed answered! ha! 

** Kallang Leisure park

~ When I reached, the first thing I saw was Little Miss Smiley. It kinda get the both of us going smiley & silly over these stuff. Thus I bought 2 note book. 

A vintage looking one

and a cutesy looking one! 

Sometimes its scary to know how emotions just switches to and fro. 

One moment you are just happy, the next moment, you are all emo-ing. 

Its weird but thats life! 

For the past 1 week. I was thinking/wondering. What was I doing?

Maybe there have been too much negative comments/thoughts/situations/feedbacks(be it happening to me or not). When the entire world around you are fill with such stuff, it gets into you. 

For some strange reasons. The 100% (ok i'm jus exaggerating it) passion I used to have just swing down right to 0%. For a moment, I totally lost interest. 

I'm nt sure if its good. I'm nt sure if its temporarily? 

I must have misplace this "passion" somewhere along the way...

I must have dropped it somewhere along the way...

I didn't even know? 

Maybe I should just stop walking ahead 

Turn back and search for it sounds like a better idea? 

I'm nt so sure.

I happen to chance upon a song over youtube the other day

It makes me very much wanted to go down on my knee, threw away everything that I have 

and just sing

Favourite

I want to sing

Until I am lost in your love

Till I found in your presence

Worshipping before your throne

Moved by the spirit

Entering into your throne

How precious this moment

Lord I want you to know

Its you, you who have won my heart

Taken me into your arms

Comforted me like a friend

Your love surrounded me from the start

I never want to be apart

From you ever again

So All mediacorp staffs are having 7-9 days of OFF starting on last SAT.

And despite the fact that I have a MOUNTAIN HIGH of work to do ...

I DID NOT WANT TO TOUCH ANY OF MY WORK after my night shoot on last FRI.

And so from last FRI till TUE(last night), I haven plug in my thumdrive to do anything!
我就是不想做啦！走开！

So in a blink of an eye. The "holiday" is ENDING soon! (oh damn it!)
Well at least, I did quite enjoy myself the last few days!

13th June 2009

** Slack my noon away
** Headed down for SAM's 21st Bday party!

** Headed down Thomson to meet Janet & Samuel for late late night supper!!

What a great time of catching up and thats real simple joy! I love my SUPPER KAKHIS!=)

14th June 2009
** Attended SVC @ JW

~ I Like what the beauty pageant ppl shared. It was so real.
~ I Like the way Jacelyn Tay shared abt her encounter with GOD.
~ Especially love the part where she says: "Whats a dragon doing in an angmo religion" OMG. My members and I just burst out laughing.

It sets me thinking, really, all you need is just one encounter from GOD and it will change your life. I bet this encounter Jacelyn has, she will remember it for life.

** Had a short catch up with Jul & Rob over lunch after svc @ Crystal Jade
** Caught "Ghosts of girlfriends past" with few of my cell mates.

15th June 2009

** Headed down Haji lane to meet the owner of "CONCEPT STORY"
~ After which, I just secretly wish I had time, time to do the things I love. I ponder about everything and anything all over again. What am I doing now? at the age of 22?

** Headed down bugis.
~ Initially wanna do some window shopping. But I totally had no mood for shopping. I just kinda hated ppl walking around/beside me. Just suddenly wish the entire mall has ZERO ppl! soo...

** I Bought magazines & decided to slack at some corner
** Text & jio Miss P & she came down to join me
~ We had a short but great time catching up, having our usuals @ TCC

16th June 2009

** Met my director @ 1130 for SCRIPT DICUSSION @ coffee bean
~ Yes I'm nt kidding! :x on our off day! BAaahhhh!! A script discussion with my director is needed. But it just makes me go over the script all over again and remind ourself how *#$*^#*$^#* this script is.

the day was save by ...

** having a super duper late lunch @ 4pm @ HK cafe
** Caught "Drag me to hell" with Liangcai & Ricia - what a comedy horror it is! Got me laughing like hell.

** Had steamboat @ lele pot @ tiong bahru with my fellow APs. Its open by one of our 武指.
~ while on the way over. I bum into ms rara, tiffy, nana. I was OVERJOYED! I miss them sooo soooo sooo much! Buming into them just makes my night!

** Headed down MAC @ Farrer road
~ Can't imagine we played HEART ATTACK for more than an hour? After which, we headed home. Thinking back, its just hilarious! We are all out of our mind. haha

17th June 2009

So now, I have to force myself to be a good girl & start doing/settling my rundown!
I'm so nt looking forward to the coming mon! I have to start praying like mad that the stupid baby will nt start crying @ unappropriate times!

Or else u will see my huge face on news headlines

"ASSISTANT PRODUCER KILLED A 9 MTHS OLD BABY WHILE FILMING”

and so you see. I'm totally distracted from doing rundown. That explain this post! =p

My Cousin & I.

So.. what was I doing?

and soo..

where has my passion gone to? seriously

即将开战了。我心还没定下来
不知明天会是怎样的一天

这个和下个礼拜我才开6天
Technically 只有6张rundown需要做
但为什么我好像开了10天的工，rundown做来做去都做不完
做了又改，改了又做。Amend 来，Amend去。
我已经不知道我在改什么了！

今天Apple还问我这几天有没有玩个痛快才开工
我答： 有！在office"玩“的很痛快！:x

希望明天会顺顺利利！


其实这几天还好。还蛮开心的

2nd June

* Watched Hannah Montana with some of my classmates. Was quite shock I pretty enjoyed myself watching such shows. It makes me throw down everything and laugh at every silly little things. ;)

3rd June

* Met up with the gang of FSV peeps & had a joyous dinner. Despite the fact that I had a crazy evening of last min AMENDMENTS just before I left office!

where ever we go.. haha!

my Audrey turns Andrew girl! =）

We took turns to take the school bus off somewhere! haha

OK. 开工了！

认真点！！！！

The Climb [Acoustic] - Miley Cyrus

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but,
There's a voice inside my head sayin'
You'll never reach it
Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no directions
My faith is shaking but I
Gotta keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

(chorus)
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most yeah
Just gotta keep going
And I
I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

(chorus)
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on movin'
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

2 more days to the start of my OB. 

A brand new project

A set of almost brand new team mates

A brand new start ... 

My heart skips a beat whenever I think of 开工 

What was I afraid of? 

Seeing few of my colleagues taking leaves after completing 双子星 makes me kinda envious

Makes me secretly looking forward to this day! =p 

Tsk Tsk Tsk. Bad bad bad. This is bad! I haven even started work! =p

Took a photo on sunday while singing for Dialect Service. Got a shock @ how fair I have become!

other than the very fair face. :x  I love the entire feel of the photo

+ my hair! muahaha

AMANDA 21ST BDAY SURPRISE

Attended Amanda's 21st bday surprise organize by her beloved family. Such a sweet family. Cozy gathering. And this is the first time I ENJOYED NORTH INDIAN FOOD SOOOO MUCH!! 

and since then I have been craving for more of NORTH INDIAN FOOD! It was fantastic! 

The FSV peeps with The bday girl ! =) 

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HEART

Have been pondering over tons of things

Where's my heart?

The heart for many many things

The heart to love

The heart to serve

The heart that used to be broken and contrite 

PS 51:17: The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit, A broken and a contrite heart - these, O God, you will not despise.