Sudden attack ...

Halfway through Outdoor shoot, fever bug attacked me 

Initially my throat starts to hurt and the pain increase gradually till a point that it hurt so much even when I swallow my saliva. 

Then my body starts to get hotter and hotter especially I stands under the big hot sun.

Then giddy spells hits ... I felt like if I were to close my eyes, I would fall to the ground. :x 

Suppose to go down FSV chalet at pasir ris. Its like I have been waiting for this day la !! yet, ever bug choose to come into my body today! Sigh ... Ultra sad .. Director let me off early and I went home and rest. The first thing I did when I reach home is to take my temperature 38.5 Degree. Slept for 2 hrs, woke up and it got worse :x 

people who are reading his post. Please whisper a prayer for me. My drama starting this coming week, I can't afford to fall sick !! :Thanks peeps! 

Back to my bed and rest ... 

Found an old photo ... which brought back some crazy moments. haha

4am crazyness @ Marina after Kbox

(whens our next Kbox session!!???)

Sushi Day with FSV peeps ... 

Auntie Pam, the spongebob story teller :p 

The chinese turn African Audrey. hahaha

nah, she just got a terrible tan from Tioman :p

with Auntie Pam

Marcus Tan

I was just thinking what should I type ... den this came to my mind

Daigo, the legendary PIG :p

I kinda like this shot Marcus took... Pretty artistic... 

daigo says his cig nt for me to take pic, will "lau feng"(in hokkien)

Soooo... have your cig lau feng? ;p

Out with sis the other day ...

Having a child inside her makes her become like one :p 

now u can imagine how her child will be like heee :p

Looking back ... rushing/chionging sch projects seems so yesterday and now, I'm already working full-time. :x It just shows how time flies ... Working wasn't at the top of my list. I wish I could be like others who have the privilege to study again. As much as I thought I wun be affected, but each time it kinds of affect me little by little when...

I hear the excitement of friends preparing to go abroad for studies

Seeing friends leaving aboard to study

Having AUS university emailing me and asking me abt my application

Having yet another university that accepted me to take a double degree 

It just oh-so-very tempting you know. BUT rest assure I know what I need/have to do. I know this isn't the right time to be self-fish and pursue degree for my own good. Neither am i giving up, I know there will be a time for everything. At least, I'm assured that He remains faithful. No matter what paths I take. He is faithful, through it all. Thats all I need for now. 

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Finally met up with my CHEC gang recently ... There is just this special feeling in this special group. Somethings are just so special. :) 

Nicely done up by Alicia Lim!! *clap* *clap* eh.. y din we take photo together !! 

Read something that refreshes my mind before I leave my hse for work this morning ..

If you want to grow weeds in your garden do nothing with the garden.

If you want to grow good plants, that takes effort.

It means removing weeds regularly.

Some stuff really not easy to forget ...

Last friday I was on for studio shoot at MCS .. There was this scene where the character has to bake a cake. In the beginning, I was walking to and fro preparing for stuff, thus never really take a look at the shots and everything. Then when I approach the scene. The camera man is trying to achieve a top view kinda shot. At the very second, my life was like a drama ...

FLASH BACK to the fatal day where our lens drops onto the floor which filming AFP2.

That moment was so hard to forget? 

I could vividly remember where I was standing, who was i talking to ...

I remember the loud scream after the lens drop and then followed by the deafening silence.

I dun even want to describe that remaining scenes after the lens drop ... 

I never knew it had such impact ... ... Its worse than catching a horror show ... haha! 

On a lighter note ...

FINALLY met up with my dearest CHEC gang on mon after work!

Ah matt,ayam,dap,ali and zizi .. Miss chilling n hanging out with them !

We've all come so far ... and all of us have grown !

(expect that alicia ! u need more fats! can we do a fats transplant?) :p

I had off today and the day wasn't that tough to past! 

Finally met up with daigo, marcus, pam, yvoone and audrey for a time of sushi at cine.

Followed by a chill-out session at Liat towers starbucks ... 

Oh I miss these kind of gathering !! 

PS: pics coming up soon ... 

SOoooooo IS THIS FRIDAY GATHER STILL ON JESSIE? :p

It was suppose to be a long weekend but it seems like it fly past just like that ...

Its gonna be a brand new day of the week pretty soon! 

I love the easter svc this year. It was fabulous! It was a blast. 

Initially I was suppose to serve on Sat expo svc, however due to the heavy rain I was very late for svc. Managed to reach expo only at 5.50pm. By the time I reach, they were already into a time of worship. The moment I was outside hall 1, I could feel His tangible presence. There was just something in the atmosphere and immediately there is this spurge of joy and peace within me. throughout the remaining svc, I found myself back like a little child, smiling and singing happily enjoying His presence. It has been a long while since I ever felt such strong, tangible and sweet presence. 

Needless to say, expo drama was a blast! It was something new, something more refreshing. Went for JW svc this morning and then dialect svc. Again, there is just something different in the P&W. It felt so uplifting, it felt just different. 

To be honest, I felt it was one of the best dialect P&W we ever got. There was just so much freedom in the P&W. There was just this joy, this unspeakable joy. Though my IEM gave me problems during the start of the 1st praise song, causing me to loose confident singing my parts for praise song, but I was pretty amazed that this time it din bother me for more than 5s. I just let go and tell GOD that it doesn't matter, I just want to bring this joy, this atmosphere to the congregation and slowly parts just sink in and I felt the unity and the blending within all of us. It was a unique and different atmosphere I've felt. It taught me a lesson. We dun need to worry or be bother over problems so much, take a step back and look at the Master's hand, He will eventually piece everything together for good. 

After which, Victor debrief us and shared with us in details what Pst Tan shared with the BVs. Bam! It hit me. It was then I realized why the P&W seems different and atmosphere was different and very good. The Praise & Worship team is moving up another level. Indeed He is doing something in the church. 

Bringing you the blue me .. I'm so loving my camera, it does wonders.

And its gonna be my best friend when I'm on shoot! :)

I'm looking forward to chalet ! :) 

A bunch of updates ... ... 

Din know the mention of me showing face at a little segment can brought abt so many comments. :p Its nothing la, really. I'm not a very front-of-camera person. Hahaha. Some may think its ironic right? I like singing, kinda like performing(after multiple session of vocal lessons with vic&joyce), and LOVES taking photos, but yet at the same time, I kinda siam from any front of camera stuff :x

Anyway, this week work is okie. Kinda looking forward for my new show to start! Apparently 10 out of 10 AP/PA has commented that the director I am following is one of the best director around. :) That was a pretty huge relief la. haha. Thank God for favour of men ba. :) Plus I think my drama is typical 9pm drama but a nice one, coz the cast is good! :) haha :p

I'm looking forward to our chalet! :p (though I dunnoe will i feel the same after shoot that day :p) Hahaha. But afterall, I guess it will be a good short few hours break.

I seriously need to think of something to do/go after work. I mean, seriously boredom is killing me big time man. Maybe while working, it is always so busy, but once you knock off, you have practically nothing to do. Which was a little weird. Thus I have to find some stuff to do after work or on days that I am not working! :p And maybe its time to meet up my long long never meet up supper-kahki Janet Liu, occasional visit Sis's and her parents! 

Daigo intro another TVB drama. (I seriously can trust his taste for these kinda show). Gonna hook on watching it for the next week. :p WhooHoooO!! 

Ok, work aside. I'm quite surprise that I'm taking some comments pretty lightly. Not as up tight, not as affected? Does nt bother me anymore. It struck me, does it mean that I no longer care anymore? Does it mean that I'm already preventing anyone else from unlocking it? It could be a good thing! Oh well.. After all, I need to focus on the right thing ... Right channel ... Its okie ... 

Some photos that I finally got ! :p 

For once I feel that I'm light enough for ppl to carry. :p haha

1/4 of the crew for "the showdown"

within the machos. :p what are we? hahaha

Whooohooo!! Today is shiok ah !!

Dun think I ever did a 1/2 day shoot b4. haha. Thus today I end work at around 12pm? 

Shiok la !! 

I have been quite discipline, push myself to bed at abt 12am (at least b4 1am)

So that I would have enough energy for work :P Though, I'm so stuck in watching that TVB drama . It was a simple story, but its just soooo nice. I really love TVB dramas! :p 

And I've finished 20 episodes ! :x 

Today I went on set for the first time in chinese drama.. and this is what happen:

Director: Hey u, change into that uniform and go in and act

Me(without asking) : Orh 

after 15mins (acted and changed back to my own clothes)

Helping on set with other stuff

Director: Huh! U are new PA ah?? I thought u are part time actress !! and u can still act lei! I was abt to tell AP to take note and use u back again next time

Me: blank look .. stun ..

Thus, catch me on channel 8 somewhere in August :p

That day I was just thinking about today ...

I was reminded about this verse 

For a day in your courts is better than a thousand. I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God than dwell in the tents of wickedness. Ps 84:10

Sis reminded me: There is protection in the HOG. 

Yep, finally got back our results ... Guess it was a huge relief for many of us.

I just wanna thank God that I passed = confirmed a graduate with a dip in FSV la 

Though I'm least satisfied with my results. A little disappointed actually 

I din do very well this semester ... I felt my efforts have all gone into the drain? 

I felt soo.. Huh? how come ?? I questioned why ah? But maybe somethings left unknown will be better ba. Anyway, its OVER. Its gonna be a new beginning from now on. 

Aside that. I make a trip down to Ubi to open an account for my basic theory.

Ya, like finally! haha. Den caught "sky of love" with the chiongsters. Finally a movie !! Have been wanting to catch some movies for quite awhile. So, the story was quite okie (though I find it a little draggy). Towards the end, it was pretty touching la. 

Sometimes I wish I'm not so sensitive to my surroundings. Not so quick in catching ppl giving eye signals/glances etc. Now I understand why ppl always says "Ignorance is bliss". Sometimes not knowing is really better than knowing. 

I realized I have been crying alot. haha. The day before I was watching "one litre of tears" on crunchyroll, it really make me wept! Den I got hook watching a TVB series (all thanks to daigo la!). So now I have the drama series of  "one litre of tears" and the TVB series to chase after :x

Went down to LWSSOM to pass auntie some stuff then heard some really familiar voices at the background and YES! they are showing our project in their school. Thankfully that few ppl watching din know that I'm part of that project :x really dun wanna take a look at that, it just reminds me of things I dun wish to remember at all. BUT THEN CHARLENE! I want to watch our crew version !! Please bring it to the chalet !!! haha 

I'm sooooo bored ...

Oh man ... haha. I totally forgotten about this blog that I've created almost a year ago! :

mynameisgloria.livejournal.com. Oh man ... I'm so loving that layout ... heee :x 

Im forever so flicker-minded. hahaha! :p

The Best "Worst" face of FSV-ers 2008 haha!

Thats what makes us miss school - The crazy crazzzzyyyy times !!! haha

Haha. our classmates. Shar & Zhong Hui. haha

Oh ... tml is results day! :x 

Many thoughts are running through my mind ... 

kinda a bit lost in thought. Dun really know what I really wanted to do?

Sigh .. 21 le lei .. Still no direction .. *shake head* 

Anyway, some may already know that I've accepted a job. 

Starting work like soon? I dunnoe if I'm prepared for it?

I know what some of u are gonna say!! Ya .. I know its hell ... :x

Thats what has been on my mind. I'm scare I'm nt up to it.

Just many thoughts came to my mind ... 

Maybe I just need some encouragement? Or some words of affirmation? Haha

Faith and Fear can't go hand in hand .. Yep I know ... 

Well, like what daigo says, its a 6mth contract. 

Whatever it is, endure and learn as much as I can.

Like what the interviewer said, If you can survive this place, U can survive practically everywhere. haha

So, officially this week is the last week of my holidays? 

Thus, I reckon that I should really enjoy myself this entire week !!

Sleep all I want, Chill All I want, Watch movie all I want .. :)

This week shall be a week of pampering myself like a princess :p

Sometimes I'm just so naive? Just like a child? Wishing and thinking that 

things will somehow be back to original? 

But I guess I have to tell myself that its not going to happen, 

and that I have to move on, grow up and get over it? 

Yet at the same time I want to remain the child-like character in me?

Sometimes just by looking at a child, it reminds me many impt truth.

They are full of zeal, their energy level is so high, in a way, they are so honest 

and truthful, so open. I want this kind of child likeness? 

Full of zeal and energy serving in the House of God. 

Having the never ending energy? Being so honest and truthful and just be so open to Him. 

When kids fall, they cry and run to their parents, then they smile again ...

It was just that simple. The kind of comfort and trust they have in their parents.

Shouldn't we do the same thing?

When we fall/met with troubles, we cry and run to Him and then smile again.

Simply becoz we will find the comfort and the joy in Him. 

Just how ironic are we ?? 
To a certain extent I do miss school & miss chionging projects .. Haha!

Drop by school today to make payment for the loss item. 

Watched "The Leap Years" on Fri. It was really quite a nice piece. Personally I really quite like it. To think that it was actually a local production. I thought it was pretty well done(maybe becoz the DP is from HK la) hahaha :p Anyway, really thought it was a nice one. :)

This week, Pst preach a fantastic msg. I was really captivated by it!

Details determine destiny!

Excellence = Attention given to details that will lead to superior performance!

In my heart I was like "Preach it man! Preach it!" ... I feel that constantly having the spirit of excellence in us is very important. Being meticulous, paying attention to details is very impt!

I feel that this is one area that I always have to learn and learn even more. Paying attention to the small little details, becoz these details are equally important as well.

I Kinda miss making accessories ... Jessie ... combine and do something lei :x 

Shibs load this up on facebook! lol. This got me laughing at him and at the comments! :p

Ben: think its for your own good to stay at home more, least u be mistaken :p Muahaha

Ya this is kinda how i feel now .. crossroad .. Maybe mine has a few more arrows pointing at different directions. haha. Guess half of us are feeling this way. Directionless :p

Got accepted into 2 different uni in Aus! :( sob. guess I have to let it all go, at least for now .. One uni is even offering a double degree. :x oh well, lets just say, its not the time YET ba?

Well none-the-less i guess I would have fun working? Actually I'm pretty excited on the fact that I'm gonna step out, take up a full time job, taking over the bills @ hm etc. Kinda new experience I guess. 

Sometimes we talk until we have already GRADUATED with a dip in FSV. when out results is only out NEXT FRI !! LOL ! I dun even wanna think abt it at the moment? I guess no matter how i recount the marks I could get for regional exam, its not so promising. Well. i shall just say. Believe and dun think till result its out. :p

I MISS

Sitting down, enjoying a book and people watching at starbucks

Walking down long road and listen to my MP3

Walking round and round in ikea day dreaming of how my future house will look like

Swimming n enjoying the sun in a pool with less than 5 ppl :)

Walking into a cinema with just, me, myself and I

Staying and walking around Kino/Borders for hours

Revamping and rearranging my room (i wish i can revamp my room every mth with diff themes!)

*last time i was so crazy that I drew out little little diagrams how each theme will look like.

Vintage, 60s, rock,sweet,childish, Winnie-the-poohish .. Heeee*

I seriously thinks that I will end up taking up designing if I din make it for FSV :P

*continue dreaming ... *

Haven been blogging for sometimes, thats becoz my part time job get most out of me. LOL 

Dun even have the energy/mood to do much after a long day of shoot.

But oh wells, thats just how production will be like. haha

But none-the-less I do have much fun! All thanks to those crappy crew that never

fails to brighten up my days (in the expense of making fun of me)

BUT they are all so crappy to the max.. (guess thats the trend tat media ppl will have)

FSV ppl are as crappy. BUT thats what makes everything so much more fun!? 

Did some funny stuff with the mocca guy b4 shoot. These are some stuff that cheer us up.

All media ppl are cranky and crappy. Especially crew. But SO FUN! lol 

 

Preparing to go up and try out the games !! Flying fox ! Here I come! :) 

With the Mocca guy !! WhoOoo! hahaha. For once i can say that someone's arms is bigger than my oh-so-ever huge thigh!! :p

Ps: I can't wait to get those photos form terry and that photographer! 

Now that its over. I have to start looking for full time job !! Hopefully there are more opportunities coming by! :)