可能这就是我必须做出的牺牲。失去一些朋友／时间／东西 

因工作的时间很长，不固定，所以没有什么时间能和朋友交流 

所以慢慢的，疏远了。 很可惜

有时我在想，值得吗？以后会后悔吗？

有些事我想了就头痛。想要改革，但不是我一个人能做到的

大家也要尽力。 但我感觉不到。。。灰心了。

在试多一个月吧。

知道上面的人已经很不爽了。

1) Dyed my hair @ Chapter 2 - Bugis 

( I like my stylist, I like the colour, I like the service, enough said)

2) Walked one round in Bugis street and I've myself 

(3 beautiful tops + 1 Scarf for less than $50 in total! I'm queen of Bugis! =p )

3) Went back office, got my driver and head down to Golden Mile complex to fetch some of my colleagues who are coming back from malacca. 

Reached Golden mile Complex @ 5.35pm (sun was setting aka Magic Hour)

By the time they arrived, the sun has long gone home, the F1 race has started ... and yes, they arrived at 7.45pm 

Thus I spent more than 2 hours waiting at a freaking bus stop :X  Thank God Melissa was with me. I can't imagine waiting at the bus stop for 2hrs all by myself :x 

4) I have cravings for sushi for God-knows-how-many-days. I cabbed down J8 just in time for my sushi. Yep, I went Sakae Sushi alone and eat like a Queen. 

(I'm guilty now, friday should be my GYM day! but I'm eating instead of gyming OooPs) 

5) Sis jio-ed me for movie in the morning. Great minds thinks alike !! I was desperately jio-ing ppl to watch movie! =) So we ended up watching "Mama-Mia" @ J8. Overall not that bad a show, but super corny jokes. Lets just say I enjoy listening to those songs the most! =)

By then, I was super duper tired ... (like as usual) but still I ... 

6) Cabbed down to Jake's house to watch yet another movie. A thriller, "13 Game of death" (i think thats the title). Its a Thailand movie. When I reach, they are already halfway into the show. And it was showing a well scene. 

i) GOODNESS SAKE. It reminds me ALL ABOUT work again -_- I've shoot a well scene just recently. And its freaking same concept. A person fell into the well, a guy suppose to go down the well and save the person :x smilair shots are used :x Why do I have to be reminded of work :x 

ii) I've always enjoyed Thailand's thriller/horror shows. Coz its not just another stupid or -out-to-scare you kinda of show. I always feel thailand shows has great story plot and has a lot of meaning within meanings. Thought provoking but GOOD. 

7) Ended the day by watching 1 Ep of "F.R.I.E.N.D.S". What a relax way to end the day. 

3.10am now and I'm half dead. :x 

I'm looking forward to next week. 

1) An entire day all to myself @ my fav hang out place. Just me, myself and I. I have lots of things to think through.

2) A shopping day with FeFe

3) A shopping day all by myself

4) A chill out day with friends (hopefully) 

I've kinda given up hope on jio-ing ppl for lunch/dinner etc.. From next week, I should stop doing that le.  

Attended Hee Kwan & Lydia's wedding last sat ...

Shall let photos do the talking ba ...

Lydia and Hee Kwan ( the best I can get la :x) 

and tats my sis who is 36 weeks into her pregnancy !

I absolutely adore this photo! haha

Sam & I @ Hee Kwan's wedding

Dearest Media !! I haven seen her for MONTHS man !!! 

The dearest ICs in choir. 

Idy, Meida and Jocelyn 

With the bridegroom, Hee Kwan!

With summer @ the wedding dinner

With zer (too bad our cell nv take much photos)

With ru.. Nice nice! 

Haha. The so call choir grp pix... I'm well hidden =) 

After the wedding. Followed a few of them to Alley bar near by. 

man, the moment I step in, I feel like sleeping man. I can fall asleep any moment in there.

Great ambience I must say, but I'm jus tooo tired to appreciate it. 

Recently, I have been feeling very very very tired. Very exhausted. 

Losing the strength. By 5-6pm, I starts feeling it ... by 9pm, I'm all moody and

ready to hit the bed. I'm dead serious ... Tsk tsk ...

I have to train. I have to Gym more. I have to start doing other stuff beside just

going for lessons. :x I need to loose those fats man!! 

Yesterday night I was home pretty late (1am+) after attending Hee Kwan's Wedding dinner. 

(of which I have tons of photos to post up :p)

Spend like zillion years removing my make up + Wash up

By the time I was done, it was already close to 2am 

Did my usual routine (Despite the tiredness) of checking my 2 emails, facebook and blog. :p 

By then I was tired beyond words. I felt like I drunken or watevea shit ... 

This morning I woke up at 9am. (I felt like I just had a hang over party last night -_- ) 

Its that bad ... My whole physical body felt like it doesn't belong to me 

(ppl dun seems to understand why I was feeling tired (maybe I dun understand either) and was giving me weird looks :x) 

BUT THE MAIN POINT OF THIS POST IS NONE OF THE ABOVE. 

I woke up and did my usual routine, check mail, facebook and blog. 

I got a shock to see one of my mails had like 79 new msges !! (like wth !!??) 

Just a short span of time from 2.30am - 900am ( I had 79 new msges !!???) 

Then this is what I saw and I was quite amused .... 

For those who can't really see (I've tried to get it in focus but failed)

Its yahoo email page and the entire page are emails from

Facebook stating ______ has commented a photo of you on facebook. 

Gosh, I thought that was amusing. :p 

The first thought tat came to my mind ... SO TYPICAL OF FSV PPL !! 

Doesn't sleep early, do crazy stuff in the middle of the night.

It reminds me of those good old school days where all of us are still up in the middle of the night rushing ASSIGNMENTS!! 

DAMN !! I MISS THOSE TIMES !!! 

I still remember when the clock strike 3am, all the other groups in my msn are like 0/10 ppl online. BUT under my FSV list is always 40/45 ppl online !!! GOSH !! THOSE DAYS !! 

Den I got curious and read through ALLLL the comments and DAMN !!!!

I had a GOOD LAUGH and  I REALLY REALLY TRULLY MISS THOSE DAYS !!! sigh ... 

GOOD for those who are in Chapman now !! :) 

Awwww.. Dun we just miss this place and People !?! 

For some weird reasons, our guys has the fetish of throwing

ppl into the dustin. look at how happy Marcus is ! =p 

Look @ the amt of spectator =p Spot me!

TADA. happy and satisfied. Haha

Shibs look sooo excited being molested by a mannequin!

oh... She has a name and her name is call HELEN.

Oh! and I broke one of her thumb!! OOopPss =p 

Man ... tis remain as a classic.. Look at her left hand.

Was it another hand behind?? :x

A shot from my year 2 project.

Acted by the same girl above. haha! 

and who's tat man? 

none other than Jessel Yam Chee Hon la !! OoOps =p 

If I was a story teller I would say ... 

One fine day, Gloria and sammy set the studio on fire and walks

off the set gracefully feeling sooo damn happy,while others

 rushes towards it. After a few moments ... 

She was damn happy & high to know that she

 succeed and laugh on the spot while sammy has

 already run off miles ahead. 

Year 2 class Chalet. This is what I saw the moment I 

get out of the bedroom of the chalet.

Awwww... What an fantastic breakfast the guys have

prepared for us. ALL done by the guys! 

one word:  DELICIOUS! 

I miss this watermelon + honeydew sago

Prepared by one of the guy. Its one of the best

honeydew sago I have ever eaten. I'm serious! 

Awwww. I can just go on and on ... NOW I really miss school ...

DAMN.. Why am I not in sch?? =[ 

简简单单的一天，我很开心。 可能是因为真的轻松很多吧。 我的这份工有好有坏。忙起来时真的是忙到无可用言语来解释 但当一切结束时，突然就变的非常无所事事，这一切的突然真的有好有坏。 因身体无法接受，就会生病。 昨天终于可以把一切放下，轻轻松松的休息一天，但因身体不习惯而发起烧来。真无奈。 sometimes in this industry working is like high on adrenaline. busy busy busy bee. running here and there. heart beat faster and faster. what's tiredness? For that moment, tiredness doesn't appear in your dictionary.

今天和大队一起出发到马六甲。不，我不是真的上马六甲。就下来帮他们搬东西。 所以就有了机会和大队一起上 JB。 不知不觉和_____谈起话来。一谈就谈个不停，一谈就谈了两个多钟。 我们两都很惊讶，我们有非常多相识的地方。 想法，看待友情，看待爱情，看待人生，看待这演义圈 等等。 我们都非常非常的相识。 我们都是属于想很多很多的人。 we are thinkers. Deep thoughts thinkers.

sometimes, alot of us question ourselves. Why do we choose this path? Why do we walk this road? Why do we still walk even when we know that there's so many other path that we can go to? Haven't you?

There's just thousand and one things in my mind ...

可能就在等那到彩虹的出现吧

When everything is over ... SMILE =) 

Becoz everything's over !! =p 

Pretty eventful the last few days, thus I can finally rest only today! 

my no-so-official last working day for my current project was on sat 

SUN

Woke up early in the morning for church, Stayed for dialect practice, went for a short supper after practice. reached home close to 2am. (drop dead tired) 

MON

10am - schedule to go back office and bring new PAs to tour around mediacorp :x 

8pm - Went for superband 

920pm - Had a last min call and chiong down Jurong West for a meeting with pst kong as he wanted to meet up with ppl involve in the creative ministry

1am - reach home 

TUE

Scheduled to bring the new PAs on shoot. Thus went to help out a wedding scene in CHIJMES

5.45am - woke up

7am - Call time for shoot 

6.45pm - traveled back Office 

7.45 pm - Travelled back city hall to meet up with FEFE to celebrate NANA's bday

830pm - Dinner @ shokodu 

1030pm - Back to CHIJMES to chill out & have a drink!  (yes back to CHIJMES again, but I had a fantastic time!) 

Thus Today I can finally rest !!! Soooo let peektures do the talking!! =) 

NaNa's bday. FeFe and I went down to join her Cell & friends. 

It was like the whitest cake we've ever seen =p 

Dearest Ms nana and Me! 

Back to the olden days =) 

nana.shanshan.fefe

Give us a camera and we just start snapping away! 

Susan.nana.shanshan.fefe

The bday girl @ Chijmes

Susan. she doesn't like taking photos, but seeing us taking

pictures like mad, she joined in the fun too!

And it was gorgeous! =) 

A very pretty friend, Hui ling! 

And finally a group photo! =) 

Pretty pretty soon !! (period) Cheers :) Just another 3 more days !

I just can't help but keep pondering what's next for me?

This few days I have been thinking abt the past ... 

Sometimes I truly miss the past ... 

I miss those days spend in CHEC

I miss those days spend with fefe, peizi, alicia, jessel yam, ah matt, ms nana, ms rara, ms tiffy, ms pauline, xiao rong 

I miss those days where I will drop by and spend my afternoon helping out

I miss those sundays dropping by CHEC helping ms nana with her work

I miss those times when I'm so much more involve in choir, serving multiple services, helping out this and that, occasional meetings and stuff 

Its really the past ... I guess? 

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The past 2 days was a torture for my precious skin 

I spent the last 2 days at the most ulu places in singapore? 

Punggol End lalang field - shooting a chase here and there, den murder scene

Tampines Ave 9 biking trail - Shooting a scene where a character kills a tiger :X 

(this place is like a forest -_-) 

Usually I'm super NOT prone to mosquito bites, whenever we go to such places, the whole entire world got bitten by mosquitoes, but not me. 

BUT 

this time round, this 2 places prove me sooooooooooo WRONG. I was sooooo badly bitten and my two legs are totally ruin. Was slap left right up down by all those lalangs, was bitten by all sorts of insects you can ever find, surrounded by millions of red ants. I've never see such huge red ants's nest in my entire life! Now my whole entire leg and hands are SOooooOo freaking ITCHY!! Aside from that, I was burnt too. 

This is what I get after spending 12 hrs in the middle of the huge lalang field

where there isn't any trees insight :X 

I had these red spot all over my leg after a day spend in the lalang field.

And it got worse after spend another day @ the "jungle" :x 

And this is the so call jungle I'm talking abt :X 

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Anyway, I'M GOING FOR AH MEI'S CONCERT AND I AM SUPER EXCITED FOR IT !! 

I'm damn happy la !! :)

I miss chilling out, seriously ... It hasn't been the same for me anymore .. oh well ... 

Looking forward to chill with Janet and samuel sometime next week. 

I still remember Jan and I sort of make a pact saying that after her stress thingy + after my drama we shall chill and indulge ourselves in boxes of ROYCE CHOCOLATE! 

I'm looking forward to indulge in it !!! 

TODAY

I did a stun that totally stun my AP today. 

Was with my AP heading back to office after packing lunch from canteen

At the bottom of our office, I flew and almost split and landed on the floor with an ultra position. The packet of rice in my hand flew and split open and landed on the floor 

We were jus happily talking and it all happen in a split second that stun the both of us. 

What has just happen man ??? 

THUS I HAVE TO 

Eat my rice in the red plastic bag. It was just sooooo memorable -_- 

Thats my interesting lunch :p 

My house contains the kings and Queens of "C" ppl and sadly that is the major problem 

Me = Quite C

Dad = Very C

Uncle = Super extra C

MUM = Crazily extreme super extra C 

and when the 4 of us add together, you get TERROR! HORROR! -_- 

and its driving me to my wits end 

I was telling myself, if I ever get married, I must make sure my Husband cannot be "C" 

BUT

BUT

BUT

I think it will drive me even more crazy if my future partner isn't C. How could I stand it?? 

Contradicting? Thats Human Nature ... 

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It has been a bad bad week for me ... But on a lighter note ... I'm gonna regain a little bit of freedom soon .. 

Starting from today, I will be working 9 days straight and after that the entire team will go up malaysia leaving me here in SG.

No news about my next project, thus I self-declared mini holiday 

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Talking abt work, I jus have to say, after a long day or long week of work, all we need is just understanding from ppl around 

I realized ppl tends to think my job is all-so-very fun and glamours to work with big stars etc etc. Yes it is fun to a certain extent but ppl will not understand what's the job like until u are in it. Yes at times we get to take photos on some special occasions but behind those pretty photographs there is a whole lot of untold stories, misunderstandings etc etc. 

at times or rather honestly i dun feel the support from ppl around and tats sad. 

I have given up lots of freedom and time for my job (becoz it simply requires n I had no say)

the things tat I used to love to do i lay it aside, not becoz i dun love doing it anymore

Pls dun simply conclude me as not willing or wanting to commit anymore. -_-

oh well .. anyway

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Sign up for california Gym @ Novena. 

Its near my office + home. Great location. Another plus point for motivation. haha

Went for 3 classes today. Yoga, bodylicious, bodycombat(kick boxing)

And I am totally in love with kick boxing! Its SooOoOooOoo fun !! 

bodylicious is killing my butt and leg. After 1hr, my legs became wobbly :p 

(its been zillion years since I last work out u know) :x 

Am gonna make use of my off days to GYM + driving =) 

Thats my short term goal for now 

1) Get my driving license

2) Get in shape + good health 

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The start of my 9 days straight work day. 

Count down with me, wun you? =)